I know I've been streaming three times a week (or at least, trying to) for around four months now, but... I'm going to stop.
When I started streaming in January, it was with the intent to try out Twitch as a platform and see how I (and my followers) liked it. I had never done anything like that before, and wasn't sure how I'd feel about it. After a few months of streaming, I feel like I've given myself enough time to get a feel for it. And while I can see the appeal of Twitch for many creatives, I don't think it's right for me.
I won't get too deep in the details, but the main two problems I had were scheduling (what's the point of working for yourself if you can't have a flexible schedule?) and my own introversion. The amount of emotional and social labor that a three hour stream requires of me is no joke, and I can't always deliver a funny, energetic, and engaging personality on demand. I found myself feeling a deep sense of relief whenever I had a good excuse to cancel a stream.
And that's really the bottom line: I'm just not enjoying it. Don't get me wrong — there's a lot I love about streaming. I love the group of friends I've built up on Twitch, I love the in-jokes we've developed, and I love that my followers are getting to know and become friends with each other. What I don't love is the pressure. Which is why I'm quitting Twitch Creative.
Not fully, of course! I will still do impromptu streams when I feel ready for them. But I'm afraid that "serious Twitch streamer" just isn't the path for me.
Thanks for coming along for the ride! I know this will be disappointing to a few dozen people who were regulars on the stream, and I'm sorry. But I hope we can keep trying new things and finding the places online that feel best suited for all of us!